There were two other incidents and both concerned the English subject which has two parts (composition and the integrated paper). That day after English
composition, I suspected that I didn't do very well compared to my classmates who were happy that what they learnt at tuition was quite similar to the test
topics. Hence most of them felt the paper was relatively easy and were confident of doing well. When I heard that, I was let down as that meant that the
overall grade or results would be high and hence my chance of a good score would be low. At that thought, I went to the bathroom and cried. I was unsettled
but I had to compose myself in order to sit for another paper in the afternoon. I waited for break time when I could pray quietly to ask God to calm me down.
Miraculously, when I began to sit for my second paper, I was much more peaceful and could fully concentrate. I really thanked God for His help.
The second incident was the English oral test. I am sure those who know me would know that I fear the subject of English but the worst part is English
Oral. The oral test was a final hurdle for many people, and even those who could normally speak fluently would stutter on the actual day of the test.
As usual I was afraid but like before, each time I was nervous, I whispered a silent prayer. After the oral examination, I couldn't recall at all what I said
but, to my surprise, a fellow student said I did well and that I was calm. She even asked me why I was not nervous. I was taken aback and could only thank God.
Though at that time I was not aware of the outcome, at the least, I did not run away or avoid the test.
Thank God for His guidance that I passed all my examinations smoothly including English oral and the most important English paper which was the integrated
examination. My results were what I hoped for and I was accepted by a government-sponsored university. Though there will still be many challenges ahead,
I believe God is omnipotent and He knows my needs. As long as I rely on Him, He will reward me unexpectedly. All this time, I have deeply experienced the
bible verse in 2 Corinthians 12:9 where it is stated "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the
more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." This is definitely true, as every encounter I faced has strengthened my faith that what
God provides is sufficient for me.
May all glory be to God forever. Amen!